I am dedicating this to my wonderful husband, my 4 beautiful daughters and my heavenly son "AJ" and also our newest addition Colt. This is a place for me to share my/our journey. I am a wife, a working mom, and a grieving parent.
As a parent that has had a child pass away..... I have been told it is a life long process of grieving at different levels.... I do Agree so far!!!
At the beginning of my journey, I was told many comments from others who are already in the journey...
Sorrow gets easier with time.
In time it will be more bearable
Notice the pattern....TIME!
This process I/We are on is a Journey.... This Journey is what I/We choose to make it!!!
I find in this Journey it is important to value moments.... I still feel moments of over whelming grief/sorrow. I miss my son greatly!! I break down and Cry and it is OKAY!!! Those pent up feelings have to come out. Most times I am alone when it happens. For example: Driving home from a dear friends open house regarding her son whom passed away, I broke down in tears. The drive was quiet as I contemplated the sorrow a parent has. All of a sudden, I felt overwhelming sorrow!! The tears welled up in my eyes and all I could do is say out loud "AJ I miss you and Love you" over and over!!!
These moments in the beginning of my journey were longer and draining.
Overtime these moments have become shorter and refreshing!!!!